Nonononononono

There are so many things coming up soon that are going to test me. They'll require me to be sincere and passionate and profound and serious and on time and brave and smart and impressive. I'm so worried that I'm going to put it off till it's too late and then end up having nothing to say for myself. I am so worried about not fully representing myself and so scared of opening my mouth when I have nothing to say. Oh God have mercy and be with me and take my words away and replace them with Yours.

I swear about half an hour ago I was having a laugh fit about something that wasn't that funny and now I'm just bawling after reading something. It wasn't that I read it either. It didn't mean anything serious to me. But now I'm covered in snot and tears and I don't know why.