Are you joyous?

Being beaten down by the forces of this world and living so isolated tends to make one's spirit less than joyous although there are times one can forget in a moment of Blazing Love or creative ecstacy which may constitute any ideas one has of joyous and I find that saddening because there's so much more
(My somewhat well-thought out answer)

Tom often asks me this although I don't think he means much by it.

It's a good question to ask yourself. Are you joyous? How could you not be with the new sort of life Christ has given us? All things are new. That's the problem, it makes you more vulnerable to evil when you are new. It means you're a threat and you must be dealt with. But I guess no one really thinks that when their life seems to be going horribly astray from what they think it should be like when they've accepted Jesus in their life. And I suppose it's more than that, it's actually trying to live for Him. And that's such a struggle, more than a "normal" life sometimes. But why stop there, why not show us a new struggle in order to shape and mold us into a more perfect being, the way we were meant to be? This means, as I've learned over the months, don't get too comfortable or you'll forget where you're going. I say that a lot, before I really knew what it meant.

I don't expect you to agree or understand what I'm talking about, I'm not entirely sure myself, but I'm finding whatever this is to be true whether I understand it completely or not.

Please pray for my family and me. We're a threat apparently and are being dealt with in all sorts of ways, which makes living hard to want anymore.

Also, I forgot to say hello. So... Hello.